Michelle McNamara
I have
read many books, many different authors have touched my soul with the words
they use so intricately and delicate. Most times, I use books to escape the
reality I’m in, just get soaked up into someone else’s imagination. Not
Michelle McNamara’s. I read I’ll Be Gone in the Dark knowing without a doubt it
would rock my world, it did not disappoint. However, the more I read, the more
I saw and heard how just intertwined Michelle had made this case into her life,
the more I realized that certain people had a way to intrigue you, even if the
topic is more than sinister. Part two of ‘I’ll Be Gone in the Dark’ ends with
one simple sentence: “(Editor’s note: Michelle McNamara died on April 21st,
2016).” The book then continues using bits and pieces torn out of her
handbooks.
To
replicate her style of writing especially being that close to an investigation
was impossible, she was able to write the first-person narrative so many people
crave. As a woman who has tried her hand in true crime, not necessarily
writing, but mini reporting as I will call it. To deep dive into cases is one
thing, to revolve your life around it is another. Many people aren’t cut out
for all the negatives that come with it. There’s a deep dark cloud above the
true crime world, one that if you let it, will completely consume you. Somehow
(which will remain a total mystery) Michelle managed to balance the dark cloud
and a light one. Many “keyboard sleuths” also live a very secluded “day life”.
Some
live alone, many have fluffy companions but lack a connection with human
beings, why? In my head, it’s because reading all true crime makes one hesitant
about emotional connections in general. Stories featuring mothers killing their
children, husbands their wives, siblings, siblings their parents, the amount of
real-life horror makes me question why we feel the need to produce horror
fiction. Not Michelle though. Michelle lived a life in the spotlight. Michelle
stood alongside her husband, Patton Oswalt, who lives a life of acting and
comedy, and has a true knack for true crime. When I first started researching
Michelle, I found it very inspirational that despite having almost completely opposite
lifestyles, they still managed to create a beautiful life for their family. They
pushed each other in the best possible ways, without each other it's hard to
imagine one without the other. Michelle’s career was full of researching real-life
monsters, lurking in every shadow that could possibly be found, some in plain
sight. Yet despite of that she leaves behind a daughter that will ask the world
the same kind of questions with the same kind of urgency that Michelle did.
Detectives
say that McNamara’s book didn’t solve the case, it kept the story alive. I feel
like Michelle did more, not only did she peak the public’s interest in the
case, but every investigator, detective, police officer, etc. that Michelle
spoke to, she pushed to go the extra mile even if the decedents of the deceased
are deceased themselves. For Michelle, this was never about the victims, past,
present, or future, and I don’t mean this in a malicious way. What I mean was,
victims were the victims. Michelle proved that you could completely change
their identities, and she wasn’t spending day and night trying to find the
clues victims left behind. For Michelle, this was always about slapping
a pair of shiny, chained bracelets on the literal waste of space that committed
these awful and unspeakable crimes.
Michelle
was a victim herself, of a crime we too often hear about on the news, we see politicians
fight about it every year to boost ratings. But because Michelle’s killer didn’t
have a physical face or a physical being, it will go on about it’s day, taking
more victims every second. Tearing lives and families apart just like they did
Michelle’s. Narcotics in America are an epidemic we’ve been fighting for
centuries. The autopsy report stated that Michelle was on a cocktail of
narcotic medication, all which were legitimate and prescribed to McNamara. The xanax,
Adderall, and fentanyl mixed with an underlying heart condition led to the
demise of Michelle McNamara. Whereas at the end of her story, also unbeknownst
to her, there was a conclusion. Joseph James DeAngelo was arrested on April 25th,
2018, 2 years and 11 days after Michelle McNamara took her last breath.
Joseph
James DeAngelo started his career as a police officer in Exeter, California
from 1973-1976. The first know victim of DeAngelo was a man by the name of
Claude Snelling in 1975 in front of his daughter in their home located in
Visalia, California, 10 miles away from Exeter. Reports state that Snelling’s
daughter was kicked in the face multiple times by DeAngelo before fleeing the scene.
From the years of 1976-1979, DeAngelo was employed with the Auburn Police
Department. His job was terminated after he was suspected of stealing items
from the Police Department, soon after the heinous crimes that would continue
to be reported for quite a few years to follow.
The
summer of 1976 the rapes and burglaries began being reported. The manner of his
‘routine’ was odd, always stole petty and somewhat useless jewelry, coins, and
ransacked drawers. Michelle discusses in depth about how many of these tactics
were used to entice fear in his victims. The last known victim of the Golden
State Killer was 18-year-old Janelle Cruz. She was found brutally murdered in
her home, and after DeAngelo seemed to cease his unexplainable terrors.
When
his name came up in the investigation in 2018, everyone close to the case kept
their hopes low after every other ‘maybe’ previous. But when the DNA from a
tissue found in his trashcan matched the DNA from the Golden State Killer crime
scenes, heads spun. Somehow, I’d like to think that from the beyond Michelle was
able to celebrate with the rest of the world Mr. DeAngelo’s new cellblock
bedroom. In 2020 Joseph DeAngelo pleaded guilty to 13 counts of 1st
degree murder.
I
think Michelle would also be very happy to know that the victims’ families were
able to face DeAngelo and let him know exactly how he affected their lives and
he acknowledged that he knew about the terrors he had performed. Michelle
McNamara lives on through her popular novel I’ll Be Gone in the Dark which
was only 2/3rds of the way finished when Michelle never woke again. She also
lives on through her daughter and her husband who continue to spread the information
about her book and the work she put into writing her novel. Michelle also lives
on through her website, True Crime
Diary.
There are so many more cases that
deserve the kind of attention that the Golden State Killer case received but
unfortunately there aren’t many individuals with the type of drive and
determination to dive into them that Michelle McNamara had. For now, I will
continue to do my part to bring awareness to cases both widely in the public
eye and those cases that fall under the radar.
Thank you for your continued support
and if you have case recommendations please send them to: truecrimeclubblog@gmail.com
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